I am writing in response to the article printed on Dec. 8, 2009, about how "Steve May turned his life around for a better tomorrow."
I am from Price, and I was sitting here in my prison cell in Draper, as I read this article. I was deeply touched by the turn around that this man has made in his life.
I have been incarcerated in the Utah State Prison for a little over two years now, and I am scheduled to be released in Nov. 2010. Drugs have controlled my life and taken everything from me, including my children. I have battled methamphetamine addiction for over 10 years, and I am really hoping for something better in my life.
I was sentenced to prison in November of 2007, and coming here has truly saved my life. Sure, there are a lot of bad things about being in prison, but I am more free here than what I ever have been "out there" in many years. I am free from active addiction and needing substances to function. I like my new found freedom and want to build on that to a better future for myself.
I was a slave to the drugs, and I have done many things that I deeply regret. I want to sincerely apologize to those whom I have offended in anyway what so ever, during my crime spree.
The officers working at Carbon County jail would see me coming, and say "not her again." I put the jailers through a lot during my numerous trips in and out of jail. I have several felony convictions that follow me around like a dark cloud. I wonder if there is another chance for someone like me who has made so many mistakes: I am 36 years old, and I want to turn my life around more than anything.
I feel better than I have in years, and I do not want to let this change slip away. I am glad to see that Steve admits in his story that "He wakes up everyday and has to make a decision not to use." I do not think that the thoughts of using ever leaves an addicts mind. I guess it is how we deal with those thoughts that count, which leads me to the question, "Are there any support groups for adults that will help with successful re-entry back into the community after a lengthy incarceration?"
The parole board has terminated me, which means I will leave here without the supervision of parole. What I do with my chance to have a "better tomorrow" is all up to me. I do not care to ever see the faces of those whom I have used with. I know that keeping those kinds of associations will only bring you down and I truly hope that I will be able to find support that will help my transition back into society.
I hope that one day I too, will have a success story like Mr. Steve Mays.
Way to go Steve!